calivintage

 I have been following Erin at calivintage for an absurdly long time (like before she was a "style icon" on chictopia...)  I wanted to practice my sketching with one of her lovely pics.  Can't say I exactly stuck the landing, but I didn't rip it up in frustration.  I think I say this everyday, but it is a process.  I need to think about the learning curve and get off the computer to practice again!  :)

mini launch

Well I was pondering closing the etsy shops for a while now, and then the universe decided to smack me on the back of the head and say "NO!".  I sold a vintage skirt and decided to start the long process of switching handmade things to the new shop.  I got three in tonight and am kinda excited. 

Now I just need to redo ALL the pictures.

baby steps though right?

warm ups

just trying to wake my hand up again

insta-lately

Just got back from a road trip home including a wedding weekend visiting my man's family, then my family, then the old stomping grounds in Minnie(apolis).

iPhone photos to cure my soul:

 northern bound

 country roads. windows down.

 ice cream and architecture 

 making blueberry pie with my man's ma

 Wisconsin variety pack (LOVED Totally Naked)

 Ruger.  X's were my first round, O's my second, and unmarked my third

 Minneapolis skyline via the Minneapolis Institute of Art

love love love Herringbone wood floors

(In the MIA)

Now Back to the grind...

other people's dreams

Lately I have been struggling with the balance between my own creativity/passion and the success of other people.  I fairly lucky that I am able to pay my rent/eat more or less support myself through my seamstress and technical design work.  I am so happy I no longer need to work late nights at a bar or restaurant just to make rent (finally).   But the down side to this form of self-employment is that I am putting all my energy into other people's designs.  I miss creating things I want.  I think I need to make a schedule for myself to set aside an hour a day to sketching or sewing a dress for myself or updating a much neglected etsy shop.

 I guess I have finally had some time to think about where my life is going.  I want to become the decision maker for my world.  This may sound funny but up until now I felt like I was so busy and my life was just happening without me actively thinking about the what or why (or future).  I want to make goals for myself and really honestly work for them. 

I saw a silly tumblr quote thing the other day that said if your dreams don't scare you they aren't big enough.  At first I passed it off as just that, and then I realize I let my dreams scare me away.  I let them terrify me into playing it safe.  Well now I am starting to feel like I want to jump off that cliff.  I don't know exactly what it is going to look like or how and when, but I ready to work on myself and my future.  And it makes me so happy and excited for the future.  :)

 I doubt if anyone will even make it through this free written and personal post but right now I needed to write it for me.